This week’s movie is supposed to be The Third Man. But I haven’t watched it yet. And I’m not in the mood to watch it yet.
I don’t know what the deal is. It’s like I’m in a funk today. I’m stressed out about work. I’m anxious over a potential change that I’d kind of like to make but can’t really talk about because there’s no guarantee that it’s happening. I’m unhappy with what I currently do and desperately need that change to happen, but I’ve been put into this sort of holding pattern.
Don’t get me wrong, I love the people I work for. My company, that is… And I’m kind of excited about the potential change that’s coming my way. But it’s a change I’ve been ready for for a long time. It’s a change I’ve been anticipating for a couple of months now… but it keeps being postponed. And I can’t help but question whether I’m just being strung along.
I don’t know… the whole thing has just left me with this sick feeling in the pit of my stomach.
I don’t want to think about it. At the same time it’s all I can think about.